stoplight pondering

Questioning what is confidently accurate and soundly set in my head. My world turned upside down. Expanding beyond my boundaries...the good ways offset the bad. Slightly deluded. I must take that risk. What still lacks? Healing? Spontaneity? Rejection? Affirmation? Discovery? Forgiveness? Fun? Romance? Refuge? Why do I seek where it can not be found? Must be content to be and only THEN pursue more. But contentment goes against the grain of my being! If I start small and learn gratitude, intimately, with it will come the foundation for contentment, I'm certain. What I have is all I need. What I have is amazing...