Out of the blue…book that is...9/1/06

I know that we have been somewhat conditioned into thinking that we need love - this was an epiphany I had while my life was turning upside down in 2004. And I realize that it is not truly a necessity for sustaining life on this earth…However, I am also one who intends to be aware of my heart's desire and will likely "live life to the fullest" no matter what place I'm in at a given time. But, sometimes those desires conflict. And sometimes, my logic interferes in a defensive strike and overrules, or dare I say, silences those desires. So often times, I attempt to reason through it all and synchronize the two of them. The past few weeks, I have been trying to figure out whether the space previously reserved for a husband or potential husband could adequately be filled by other interests or causes. I have a massive amount of compassion for all people and especially those in desperate need because of situations they can not control. Would expending that pent up energy, excitement, passion, etc. on that cause be enough to suffice? And if not, should I even be looking for that person in the meantime, or could pursuing that cause keep me satisfied and fulfilled until he comes around? And if he never does, will the void have a negative impact on my life or longevity? And when I am in my final days, will I finally have something to regret?