Out of the blue…book that is…5/27/06

Missing that "ideal" again. It's so incredibly hard to have the complete awareness that I have something incredible and yet still be yearning for something that is entirely impossible. They are two separate worlds, opposites with extreme possibilities. One brings nothing but happiness in the environment and the relationship, distress. The other, happiness in the relationship and monotony in the environment. Is there an in-between? Or can I have it all ~ my dream?